"Add and engaging title." says the blog prompt.
"Uhhhhhhh . . . " says I.
Some days it doesn't matter how many glasses of lemon water you drink in the morning or how many hours of sleep you got the night before. Some days are just -_-.
Thank goodness it's saturday!!!
I'm headed to my first womens expo today. Those kind of things are not usually what I like to do with my spare time. But, hey, good company and free samples?
Count. Me. In.
George spends most of his spare time doing homework (if you'd say that's spare time . . .) He is so busy with school it is sometimes mind boggling. The kind of mind boggling where when we try to explain to our friends at dinner why we've been MIA and haven't 'hung out' in forever they go, "Ah, man. That's craaaazy."
School work. Crazy? Sure. More like, making my husband crazy! He needs a break.
And so do I.
Which is also mind boggling for the following reasons:
A) I don't have kids of my own.
B) I don't really have any hobbies (well, except this . . . )
C) We have no family within reasonable weeknight driving distance.
D) I have no children of my own.
But, when I come home from my long day as a Pediatric Dental Assistant, make dinner, take out the dog, tidy up the house, figure out any extra things that need to be taken care of for my youth group at church (also commonly referred to as "Young Womens"), I feel like I need a warm brownie and a bubble bath. Or, lets be real, a netflix binge is so much more attainable.
When I put it like that I feel like I look back and say, "Huh, I do do quite a bit. I deserve to relax and skip todays workout." (Which I know I'll be punching myself for later) I still don't feel like I really do DESERVE it. Maybe it's the woman in me. You know, the one who always lacks that rock hard self esteem and feels incredibly insecure about the measurement in my thigh to thigh ratio.
So, lateley I've been trying to allow myself to feel tired. I've tried to allow myself to have a brownie. But I've also tried to push myself to work out harder the next day and to give my husband and puppy (and lets not forget myself) the love and attention they deserve. Because I finally had a realization. An epiphany if you will.
It's not about what we DESERVE.
It's about what we EARN.
If at first you don't succeed, try try again. And then eat the brownie.
So, if I had a day that I deem worthy of a netflix binge, I will allow myself to have a netflix binge, because I earned it. If I have a day I wake up and think, "Hey, I got a good amount of sleep!" I do that work out.
So, since I've been sitting all day on this computer trying to think of something to write and trying my best to make my blog follower-worthy. I've realized, it's not the followers, it's how I feel about my blog. It's if I feel like I've earned something today.
And I did.
I earned the right to run my mouth on the internet. Yay for me!
And I've earned the right to go to this Womans Expo.
And I've earned the chance to love my incredible husband.
Becuase I woke up this morning and realized, I'm one of God's children, too.
And that gives me the chance to earn whatever puts a smile on my face.
Even if that's a netflix binge or a brownie.